I have been AWOL, not because I wanted to be but because I literally have been poorly the last 2 weeks. I won't go into details but I've been out of action for almost everything, shopping, blogging, visiting etc etc :( The only good thing to have come out of me being poorly is that I've not been able to go shopping for the past 2 almost 3 weeks now and boy does my bank balance know it. I'm actually waiting for the bank manager to check up to see if I am still alive! I've spent NOTHING, not a penny :)
Update:
As I've been so poorly, we have temporarily moved into the Mother In Laws and Father In Laws as I needed help with baby and needed someone with me constantly in case any further complications occurred.
I have been that sick that at points I couldn't pick up, hold, cuddle or change baby's bum. It's been so hard to relax, rest and recuperate but I have managed it, the MIL has been a fantastic help. I am a proud person and for me to accept help has been hard. I have missed out on princess too much. But needs must! I need to understand that in order for me to get better I needed to rest and that I did. We have been at the MILs now for 7 days, we are hopefully going home today. Poor parents in law have been great, but we and they want their own space back now :) The past 2 weeks really have shown me who cares about me and who doesn't. Phone calls offering help, people sending me their thoughts and kindness. I didn't realise how many people care. Shame that the people I expected to call/text offering support didn't, but to be honest, it's totally their loss.
Princess is now 4 weeks old (where does the time go?) poor little madam suffers with acid-reflux, meaning a lot of sleepless nights, milk changes and periods of unsettled crying for her :( this makes mummy sad, because there is nothing I can do to take away her discomfort. However hoping that now we have the special milk for her this will help. She is getting bigger by the day, she is still in newborn clothes, which we didn't buy many of because if she had of been on time and not a little early the clothes we did buy would have fitted her. Everyday she does something new. She can roll from front to back with ease, she should not be doing this but she is :) she is super alert, she knows her big brother, by sight and by sound. LJ (big bro) has been a fantastic help, he changes nappies, he feeds her, helps bath her, gives her lots of cuddles and entertains her by reading, playing with toys near her. He really has lived up to being the best older brother a little princess could want and need. I decided not to breast feed because I just was not comfortable with it, but on a positive note, I doubt I would have been able to manage it with being poorly. She is changing by the second, I don't want to miss out on anything else, I actually refuse. Everyday seems to be a mad attempt to get princess into a routine, which I have to say has not actually worked, I'm allowing her to demand feed, mainly because of changing her milk, me being sick and her being unsettled. I am enjoying being a mummy again, however having to take a back seat has killed me. But I believe I am on the mend now, so lots of mummy and princess time to be had. I'm eagerly awaiting the big shopping trip, with her, but I know that will have to wait for now.
This year has not started how I wanted it to, princess is here safe and sound, but there's been a multitude of general crap that's also happened which really has been difficult and draining! But hoping that these bad times are set to pass and things are now looking up (fingers crossed) for us all now. I keep thinking can it get any worse, the only answer I get is yes, very much so.
When life throws you lemons, shake the salt and grab the tequila :) or if your t-total then just make lemonade! Which ever one you chose make sure you realise that no matter how tough things can get, how ever many hard times you experience that there is someone worse off than you, the troubles you face may get you down but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I know it's all just words but honestly, sometimes you just have to keep thinking positive thoughts in order to survive.
